friends (the wrong 1nes)

i never took that word lightly

every chance you could

you would — just to spite me.

you never had to lie to kick it

if you never really liked me…

you are obsessed

with the vibe that i provide.

you wanted a taste

of a friendship that allowed you a space to confide.

but everything in my nature you love about me

is also what you envy.

i never needed a friend —

it was you

who used me for your own mending.

my faith in you blinded me

from seeing that you were only pretending.

i wanted to retaliate,

and it took little to all of nothing within me

to realize:

you are beneath me —

only aspiring to get on my level.

you used my name

to turn my angels

into your devils.

you ruin everything you touch,

running against time

with a shattered bezel.

i hope that you live with yourself

and never find an easy way out.

i hope that every relationship you enter

and speak love on

slowly ruins

every time you open your mouth.

they deserve to know the truth —

how conniving

and dishonest you are,

how you abused the innocent

because you are the one who’s scarred.

you deserve to live with who you are,

until you learn to be at peace —

until you are brought to mercy

by the only One

who can grant us peace.